I'm depressed? Please read this, it's very important to me? ?

You have so much anger. We need to break it down into bite sized pieces to be able to really fix anything. First of all, you are living with your mother? Have you spoken to her about any of this? Their divorce seems to be the first source of your anger. Have you spoken to anyone about how it affected you? Maybe a school counselor, an aunt or uncle? It sounds to me like you are confused & hurt by decisions your parents have made without talking to them or listening to their reasons for what they decided. I am pretty sure they weren't (even your dad) trying intentionally to hurt you. He may not have had you in the forefront of his mind when deciding to live where he lives, but that may have something to do with his confidence in your mom's ability to care for you. Men sometimes make selfish choices, even Dads & that could be what your Dad did, but it very well may be something altogether different. I think you could benefit from asking some questions that will help you understand some of the whys to the decisions you are experiencing the results of. Try not to take Dad's decisions so personally. After all, he does want to have you this summer. Lots of people would like to go off to some other place for a vacation. If you start to understand some of what makes you so mad, you might be able to figure out how to be less angry & hurt. I'm sorry your chest hurts, and I hope you talk some of this through & that you feel better afterward. It was smart to ask for help. I would bet it made you feel a little better after you did. Keep doing that kind of stuff & you will get better & better far faster than you'd think. You aren't alone, keep us updated on your progress, sweetie.